April 10, 2014

It’s hard to believe a year ago today I pushed a baby out of my…….well, you know how it works. Pardon my excitement, but that was the first thought I had this morning when I woke up – that one year ago today I was pushin’! One year…..We made it! And excuse me if this sounds self-absorbed or insincere, but baby’s first birthday is just as much a celebratory event for the  parents as it is for the baby – the baby who has absolutely no clue that it is his birthday today. But today I feel awesome because we made it. The first year is always the hardest in my opinion. The lack of sleep, the all-consuming dependence the baby has on mommy, the one-way communication, the lack of sleep, the sleepless nights…. can you tell I didn’t sleep enough this year? I certainly wrote about it enough.  Not to mention the changes your body endures – the proverbial plug that is pulled as soon as you give birth, the hormones that spike and fall, the skin that tries to find it’s way back to where it once belonged, the boobs that swell and deflate from Ds to As like a party trick gone wrong (… and might I add that I discovered today that my beloved Target doesn’t carry AAs?? Yes, Target, some people actually need this size. Shocking, I know, but we do exist….)

And yet as exhausting as the first year is, it is also pretty freakin’ amazing. You get to experience some of the most wonderful things in life – like childbirth which is hands down the coolest experience on the planet, the 3 days of “vacation” that you get to spend in the hospital after having the baby, the most beautiful fragrance on earth – the smell of a newborn, or even better, a warm, sweet baby asleep on your chest (I know these things are  cliche, but does it get any better??)

little nest portraits

….. and not to mention all the firsts. One day they say “ga” and the next day they say “da” and you totally freak out, squeal with pride, call the grandparents, take 87 million pictures and 14 videos …. and then the next day they smile (and it wasn’t a fart smile) and the cycle repeats. Twelve thousand pictures later you have year one well documented.

But now that my baby is one I sort of feel like, “Aaaaahhhhhhh!” Big sigh of relief.  I am glad that first year is over. I am glad that I don’t have to remember to take his picture on the 10th of every month anymore. (To be honest, I only made it to month 7, but the guilt of forgetting to remember has really been weighing on me. Seriously what kind of a mother am I? ) Not that things are going to get easier with a one year old, but the infant “stuff” is exhausting and I am glad that we are beyond it. I am excited that my baby’s personality is growing and that he is starting to interact with his older brothers. Heck, they actually pay attention to him now and think he is pretty funny. I am excited that he can join in on their fun and that I can too….I don’t have to “stay back with the baby” as much and miss everything.

Buuut,  knowing my track record, this lasts about 3 months and then I get the itch to have another baby. We will see. Time will tell. Never say never. But definitely not right now! Right now I am drinking a glass of wine (shocking, I know), and making a toast to year one. We did it. We kept him alive and he only fell off the changing table once.

one year old

  • Katie
    April 10, 2014 at 9:01 pm

    Happy Birthday to Ryan!! Hope he had a fun day with you, Paul and the boys. What a cutie! Cheers, you made it!!

    • Sisters to Sons
      April 10, 2014 at 9:34 pm

      Thanks Katie!!! The sun came out for R’s bday!! It was oh-so nice!!

  • Lindsay
    April 10, 2014 at 9:09 pm

    I was going to not finish this beer sitting in my lap but now I will in a toast to you for making it to the one-year mark! I TOTALLY hear you….I hate the itty bitty baby days. For the most part. SO HARD!!! Can’t wait til my little guy is a year- two more months! Also, this post sounded like I wrote it. I think we should hang out 😉

    • Sisters to Sons
      April 10, 2014 at 9:32 pm

      Lindsay! #1. Always finish your beer. #2. I agree. we need to hang out!

  • Natalie
    April 10, 2014 at 9:17 pm

    Happy birthday to your baby!! 🙂 The itch is coming and going for me. 3 is hard!! Congrats mama on making it through “the first year!”

    • Sisters to Sons
      April 10, 2014 at 9:33 pm

      Thanks, Natalie!! I know you agree about year #1 being tough. I feel like you are going to have a 4th…. and if you do then I will have to too! 🙂

  • dutchy
    April 10, 2014 at 10:01 pm

    no comments on itches…..job well done! xoxo

  • kim @ DESIGN + LIFE + KIDS
    April 11, 2014 at 8:25 am

    OH Happy Birthday to your sweet babe and to you! It’s so true that this first birthday is really more for us and the accomplishments we made during that hard but amazing time. Love this post!

  • Carrie @ Chockababy
    April 11, 2014 at 9:18 am

    Happy birthday to your little love! He is too cute!! I know what you mean about feeling like it’s more about you than about them at this age. When my first turned 1 I called my mom to thank her for all she did to birth and raise me. You just “get it” more after you have a few 🙂

  • Barb @ A Life in Balance
    April 11, 2014 at 10:44 am

    LOL – “We kept him alive, and he only fell off the changing table once.” Pretty much what it boils down to!


  • Lauren Ros
    April 11, 2014 at 10:59 am

    Happy Birthday, Ryan, and congrats to you for making it through another year one! He’s gotten so grown up since I saw him at Christmas!

  • Gina B
    April 11, 2014 at 12:58 pm

    Happy birthday, soak it up and enjoy! Take a lot of mental pictures, because in a decade you’ll wonder who took away your sweet baby and replaced it with this obstinate child, lol… BUT he’ll still be your sweet baby every time you look at him 🙂

  • Jessica @EatSleepBe
    April 11, 2014 at 5:20 pm

    So cute. And yes, today is a celebration of making it through year one. Good for you! And happy first birthday!

  • Brandi
    April 11, 2014 at 7:23 pm

    Happy birthday and congrats on making it through the first year! 🙂

  • Heather
    April 12, 2014 at 8:12 am

    I have gone back and looked at that newborn photo shoot picture twice. He looks like such an adorable old man in that picture. Love it! Congrats on a year – you earned it…!

    • Sisters to Sons
      April 12, 2014 at 8:33 am

      Lol! you are so right, Heather! He does look like a little old man!

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