Don’t Burst My Bubble!!

April 23, 2014

If you know me, you’d probably say I am a pretty relaxed mom. Not overly helicoptery……I let my kids duke out their own fights, I allow a generous distance during playtime, and, I wait at least like 6 seconds before running to their aid when they fall and scrape their knees. I know. Talk about a long leash…..

All this is true by day. By night, I am a neurotic, anxious mess. Especially at 2am when I can’t sleep. At 2am I worry about my kids. I worry about something bad happening to them, mom-guilt surfaces, and I can’t sleep. What-ifs swirl in my brain. What-ifs that I can’t even bring myself to write because I don’t want to believe that they could actually happen to one of my children. At 2am I seriously contemplate putting my children in a bubble for the rest of their lives.

This picture was taken yesterday – all my boys in my bubble.


All was right in the world with my bubble intact.

And while these are crazy days, I am thankful that my kids never stray far from my bubble….. they go about their lives in my shadow (literally)…..always within an arms reach. I never pee alone, but I am okay with that. I know what they have eaten, what they are wearing (and how many times they’ve changed their outfit), what they say and what they do, and I am most grateful for the fact that I know they are safe in their beds every night. But I can’t maintain this bubble forever – heck, just yesterday I registered my son for kindergarten (more on those feelings later)….but I’ve come to realize that while I can’t prevent everything, I can at least be proactive and prepared. Here are things I do by day to help me sleep a wee bit better by night.

1. My husband and I sleep with a fire extinguisher next to our bed. Nothing shall come between the lioness and her cubs – not even fire. If there is a fire separating me from my babies, I will be so thankful I have this. (Note to self: Figure out how to use it.)

2. We bolted every single chest/dresser/armior to the wall. My oldest son NEVER closes his dresser drawers. One of my biggest fears is that my baby will climb in a drawer and tip the dresser. Bolt them now or buy these.

3. I have a stash of Benadryl on me at all times – my children don’t even have severe allergies that I know of…yet. But you never know if they will have a reaction to something. I keep antihistamine in my bag and at home – always. I developed exercise induced anaphylaxis at age 25… I know, you’re thinking, “What is heck that? Allergic to exercise?” Yes, it is a real thing. If I exercise after I eat gluten I go into anaphylactic shock. Freakish, but real. So benadryl is always nearby.

4. If I go to a pool, I bring a mother’s helper so that my children have someone watching them at ALL times. I have a love/hate relationship with the pool. I love it because my kids are in heaven in the water, but hate it because it terrifies me. I have one semi-swimmer and two non-swimmers. Two eyes are not enough. Even new swimmers need 100 percent supervision – they can tire out easily especially if they are constantly treading water because their feet don’t touch the bottom. Yes, a mother’s helper costs money, but an investment I will never regret.

5. I never leave my kids in the car….. anymore. One time, a long time ago,  I left 2 of my sleeping kids in the air conditioned car in our driveway to run inside for a few minutes. You know, because why would I wake sleeping babies to just run in my house? When I came back outside, the air conditioner had completely broken and the car was sweltering. This is the biggest source of my mom-guilt at 2am in the morning. My kids were totally fine and thankfully it was only a few minutes, but I will never, ever leave them in the car to run inside again. No matter what. No matter how short of a time. Ever. This is why I avoid picking clothes up at the dry cleaners like the plague.

Okay so now that I have totally freaked you out, what tips do you have for me so that I can have even more 2am anxiety? What else? What else do I need to do???????

  • kim @ DESIGN + LIFE + KIDS
    April 24, 2014 at 8:55 am

    I am always terrified at the thought of a fire! Or what would I do if we had an intruder, how do I get to my girls and who do i get first? Totally freaks me out!! And your car story – how awful! I can understand

  • Reesa Lewandowski
    April 24, 2014 at 9:27 am

    You are NOT alone in these thoughts. My husband works nights and it always seems the night is when things go wrong all the time. I swear I get panicked every time the sun goes down.

  • Stephanie
    April 24, 2014 at 9:52 am

    You are definitely not alone! I left the kids with my father yesterday. He is totally capable and yet the entire time I was gone I was convinced the baby (17 months old) would choke on a crumb of bread he would feed her for lunch. Totally unfounded but nevertheless it’s one of the many scenarios that run through my head. I would love to live in a bubble, well, some days!

  • Barb @ A Life in Balance
    April 24, 2014 at 10:14 am

    I’m a little freaked right now about leaving my kids/kid in the car while I take the cart back to the cart return. I did see someone grab a woman’s purse in the Target parking lot last year.

  • Carrie
    April 24, 2014 at 10:58 am

    Oh you are SOOOO not alone. I worry all the time but like to wear my cool relaxed mom look on the outside. I’m often freaking out on the inside! Especially after an anaphylaxis scare – I’m stressed while my kid eats. At least I seem to be losing weight since I can’t eat anymore :/

  • Mary Ellen
    April 24, 2014 at 12:12 pm

    My son also has exercise induced anaphylaxis. Yup – very real thing.

    I don’t have much to add but for some reason I thought of this parent pet peeve:
    I get concerned when I see parents yelling at their children to stop crying in public. Can we all agree that has the exact opposite result of what we are lookjng to get?

  • Gina B
    April 24, 2014 at 12:59 pm

    Ok, it gets better, believe me! But you aren’t being helicoptery in my opinion. We have to safeguard them. #4 is a MUST. Even now, my kids swim (more than me, I’d be useless to save them) but still keep an eye – a lot drownings happen at pool parties, if you can believe it. And I once saw a show, Oprah maybe? Where the kids were in the car while the mom went in the house and one found a lighter and injuries ensued. That was enough for ME.

  • Lauren Giedgowd
    April 24, 2014 at 2:45 pm

    I agree with all of that too! I am a paranoid mess sometimes. One thing I bought that may seem crazy is a window ladder (the kind that you clip on your window ledge and you can climb down) in case of any emergency. It stays in my oldest son’s closet- the last room down the hall where i’d go after scooping up the other two. Helps me sleep better at 2am in case we need to get out of the house from the 2nd story for some reason. 🙂

  • Heather
    April 24, 2014 at 4:02 pm

    Um, ok totally getting a fire extinguisher for our room. I bet you could totally use it on an intruder, too! The pool also freaks me out. We are sending my non swimmer to camp this summer and I am totally paranoid. Those counselors and lifeguards better be watching my baby.

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